found this cool bank of chairs/cubbies with plugs — so I’m plugged in and breathing deep and reflecting. Grabbed the newspaper as I boarded in Spokane and finally got to read an in depth article about Monday’s tragic incident at Virginia Tech — so many emotions and thoughts. I’m going to ramble a bit, so bear with me. First, I love my country. I mean really, truly love it, not just because I was born here, but because I believe (on many levels) it is a choice and guided nation (and I don’t mean that in a superficial or prideful way) Three times yesterday (at the jr. high, the grocery store and the church) a flag flying at half-mast drew me out of my mental "go-go" checklist mode and reminded that somewhere, not so far away people (fellow citizens) are suffering and mourning and feeling so confused and violated — America fights for and protects the freedom of it’s citizens and this means that there will be people who will abuse that freedom and make horrible choices, choices that ultimately destroy the freedom of others. It has always been this way, Monday is a brutal reminder of everything we believe in and yet if can focus on what we gain, instead of what we lost this is another chance to pull together, to remember and refocus — I don’t know if I’m making in any sense. I’ve been thinking about causes lately — and there are so many worthy causes, hungry people to feed, diseases to cure, habitats to preserve. I think though that we can lose sight of the most important cause there is — the people we live with and love and are accountable for. Whenever I’m exhausted and overwhelmed and feel like giving up I think about women (YOU) and the power and influence we have (for good) in this world. I could up and join the peace corp (would actually love to do that someday) but honestly, my greatest chance to influence and change for good this world we live in — is in my head and my home. I think a LOT about how and why Big Picture Scrapbooking came to be. It was part vision — but part accident and I think a big part fate. If I can do something to help rid the world of small-mindedness and insecurity and selfish tendancies in women and encourage them to think and feel more positive about life and their perspective, gifts, talents — then they will on their own pursue with more enthusiasm their potential to grow and change, one relationship, one family and one community at a time. Again, please forgive the rambling nature of this mental dump — but I just believe that if we can support and sustain each other in our opportunities to nurture and teach — then there will be fewer tragedies, fewer "how could this happen" events that leave us searching for answers we already have.
Anyway — gotta go get on another plane. I’m not going to go back and re-read this, so please forgive me if I have said anything offensive (certainly none intended) just needed to express ideas and motivations inside of me.
Please comment and add your insights!!
My heart and prayers go to all who are in the true wake of this tragedy.
God bless us all.