I’m so excited about my word for 2010.
I don’t remember where Ali got the idea to encourage us to select a word for each year, but I LOVE the process of reviewing past years’ words (2008 & 2009) and contemplating a new guiding word. I take this process very seriously and I have therefore been thinking (more like stewing really) over my word for weeks and weeks this year. I think this is because I am at a crossroads in my life and very anxious to make changes that will keep me healthy, centered and close to my sweetheart, my children and my extended family. Sometimes in life we keep doing what we’ve been doing because it is working, because it is moving us forward and because we assume the path we are on is a good path—and maybe it is. But sometimes we need to STOP and really look around and think about where the good path we are on is taking us. Is that destination in fact a place you want to go to — even if it is a good place? Is there another destination that might be equally good or perhaps rewarding in a different or more important way?
These have been my thoughts and before I bore you to death with my mental mumbo-jumbo, my word for 2010 is …
I’ve mentioned my experience with Baron Baptist’s 40 Days to Personal Revolution before. This six-week (spread out over 8 weeks for us) yoga program has help me approach everything–even yoga–differently.
I was FAR from perfect in applying the principles or the progression of yoga in Baron’s book and program.The fact that I attempted this process during the holidays had something to do with this — but I also think the impossibility of complete adherence was a big part of my personal breakthrough. I finally “gave in” and am really, truly accepting the fact that an inner revolution is not about taking control or exercising will power. Baron says that “At a certain point, we learn that unconditional surrender is a far superior approach to life than our compulsion to control.”
I have another post that I’m working on that will share a portion of the last chapter of Baron’s book. It was AWESOME.
but, back to my word and the practice of slowing down.
Ever since launching stacyjulian.com I have felt restless, driven and even compulsive in my doing and getting things done. I feel so much pressure sometimes its crazy! No one creates this pressure, but me and that is the really crazy part. Over the holidays and in large part because of the things I was learning in my yoga practice I started to SLOW down and just let go. Interestingly enough I still get quite a bit done. I still make lists, though I’m not making them as often. I still want to do an unrealistic amount of stuff most days, but I’m even talking and moving slower and that feeling of almost crushing anxiety is gone.
My life isn’t what it was three years ago.
- I don’t have a magazine to run any more.
- Big Picture Scrapbooking is not subject to corporate demands or measures. Kayce and I learned a great deal this year about running a healthy business and we have been blessed!
- My new website does NOT need to be everything I’d like it to be tomorrow, or even in six months. There is no rush.
My only goal (more on this coming soon) this year is to SLOW down and not have any goals. My purpose is to manifest goodness and health so that I can truly enjoy LIFE right now.
I want to go slow.