Trey + an update on me.

Guess what?
Trey was cast as Kurt Von Trapp in the upcoming CVHS production of The Sound of Music! We are so excited. He has been taking singing lessons since September with this musical in mind. Auditions were Friday and we were both so nervous. We got the call yesterday afternoon and I’m so giddy for him — these are the kinds of experiences you never forget!

Congratulations to my very animated, always singing and dancing boy!

Now, I’ve not been a very “good” blogger of late.
I’m 100% OK with this.

For a long time, I’ve been wanting to write a complete update …

I’m sitting perched on my exercise ball chair on this fine Monday and find myself in a rather reflective mood. I’m looking out at a beautiful blue sky and pristine white snow. The temperature is frigid and the wind cuts right through you, but it is warm inside my office, as long as my space heater is on and directed at me. I am filled with a wonderful sense of contentment and so I’m going to write and see how this goes. If you don’t read my blog regularly, this may not be a good post to start with! If you are a personal or virtual friend of mine, you may know that 2010 has been a challenging year of shifting priorities. Last year at this time, my home was decorated and my lists were complete but I was filled with anxiety. The harder I tried to be productive, the more frustrated I felt. I pushed through the season, hoping for a new-year reprieve from the daily uneasiness and dissatisfaction I felt.

January and February came and went while I persisted in rituals that have been helpful and healing in the past, but I couldn’t shake the overwhelming sense that something was wrong. I wasn’t unhappy, but I wasn’t happy either. I thought perhaps it was a bad case of the winter blues. I felt a really deep kind of tired that couldn’t be fixed with sleep. Sleep in fact, was restless. I would fall into bed exhausted and begin to wake up between midnight and 2:00am. I would experience what can best be described as very shallow rest. My mind was awake and (most nights) could not be coaxed into calming down. When morning rolled around I would get up, but I was not refreshed. I generally fought the urge to go back to bed. I forced exercise, which was not invigorating or fun. I felt weak and I could NOT lose my holiday weight.

I marched through March with very little energy, even though there were new things on the horizon that should have given me the extra enthusiasm that comes with anticipation and preparation. I didn’t even find much relief in creating. I was immersed in teaching Library of Memories–I wondered if I had grown tired of that? By April I had made an appointment with my OB/GYN with hopes of discovering something I could blame with my general sense of lethargy. My blood tests all came back normal. I cried. I really wanted something to be wrong — even if it was depression, I was ready to know and know what to do. I hosted a really fun girls’ weekend at my house the weekend of May 1st. We ate and talked and attended a uplifting event and I felt good, but not better. On my birthday, I wrote this post. I’m so thankful for my blog that affords me the chance to look back with the 20/20 perspective that comes as the future unfolds.

In May I went back to my doctor. I told her there had to be something wrong. She reminded me that I have five children and a busy work schedule. She told me that at 45 I could very well be peri-menopausal (yippee!) and that the symptoms I described could last for six months or six years. I told her I couldn’t keep going for even six months and I broke down and cried. Embarrassing! At this point, she told me she could refer me to a pharmacy where I could meet with a functional medicine practitioner. Whatever that meant, I was game. She ordered a blood chemistry that looks closely at your hormone levels. I had to fill out about 14 pages of personal information and I wasn’t able to make an appointment until June 16th. I was so eager to find any kind of understanding or direction.

I wanted my husband to be excited for me–that I had somewhere to go and someone to talk to, but the physician in him was leery– and speaking of my husband, communication with him had all but ceased to exist, since I was so emotional, I bawled every time I tried to “talk.” I wanted him to magically see into my soul and be able to fix me — or at least see that I needed extra love and understanding and that I didn’t feel I was getting it. I was dealing with an almost constant stream of negative thoughts, assumptions and conversations in my head. It was utterly overwhelming.

On June 10th I had my blood drawn. On the 16th, I was informed that my hormones were out of whack. Really not good. In fact, Edie (the pharmacist) told me that I should feel …

1. really, really tired.
2. boarder-line depressed
3. like crying all the time
4. overwhelmed and dissatisfied

She told me my muscles should feel weak, my legs and arms tired and heavy and my overall outlook bleak. Oh the btw, I should NOT feel like having sex. She was right!

I won’t go into further detail, but I will say that I left Edie Ward’s office with bio-identical hormone replacements and more hope than I had felt for a really long time. Things didn’t get better overnight, but I felt I was on the mend and that was enough for me. I immediately went into summer planning mode thinking that with the help of these hormones, I could will myself well. Not so. July flew by, filled with family activities and finally I was home for a few straight weeks. After I had caught up on sleep, I began to do some research on my own. I wanted to know why my hormones had become so depleted. I began to read about something called Adrenal Fatigue and I found the Women to Women website and this book.

I returned to my new pharmacist friend, Edie and we talked for two hours!
She gave me a take-home saliva test that would help ascertain if I was indeed dealing with a depleted adrenal glands. I took the test, left on a weekend trip with Geoff and got a call from Edie en route. She essentially told me that I had it and that I had it bad! I returned home and started taking some supplements designed to support those poor little, overworked adrenal glands and with her help I started eating very differently. Within two weeks, I finally began to feel like Stacy again and I was so happy.

I headed into September full of anticipation. Clark and I joined members of my extended family to run The Red Rock Relay. We got home on a Sunday night and Geoff told me that the stake president wanted to visit with me. Now, for those unfamiliar with the organization of the Mormon church, a stake president oversees several wards or congregations. Generally, a request to visit with the stake president means a new calling and one on the stake level! I immediately asked Geoff if he had any idea what this was about (very often a new calling extended to woman is shared with her husband first, to make sure he is willing to support and sustain her.) Geoff assured me that this new job would be something I could handle. I reminded him that I still felt very fragile and was eager to get stronger and find a new normal before taking on something new or big. He said, “You will be fine.” Two days later I was called to be the stake young women’s president. I am fine, and I appreciate my husband’s faith in me, but this is a really big responsibility. I, along with three other women who were called to be my counselors and secretary now oversee the young women’s organization for our Spokane Valley stake, which consists of nine wards. Each ward has a ward young women’s president that is called to serve, teach and train young women within the geographical boundaries of her ward. Our job is to train and support these ward presidents and plan multi-stake activities for thousands of young women and youth in general between the ages of 12 and 18. I’m absolutely convinced that Heavenly Father loves His children because I’ve felt the peaceful reassurance that comes from the Holy Ghost and I’ve already had lots of impressions and ideas and direction. By the way, you can learn more about the young women’s program here.

It is interesting to me, that I chose S-L-O-W for my word in 2010.
For two or three years I’ve been praying and trying to figure out how to slow myself down a bit. I now look back on this year with awe and gratitude because I believe God is answering my prayers and facilitating my intention to go SLOW. In essence, my adrenal fatigue shut me down and forced me to take LOTS of things off my plate, so that I would in a position to accept a new “hefty” calling and shift my focus to things that are ultimately more important to me. I’m learning that “rock bottom” is a good foundation for a better version of yourself.

Ooops, gotta go.
I just had an opportunity to go to a friend in need, and I went!
Love that feeling.

This post is now to be continued later …
(thanks for making it this far!)

Comments

  1. Wow, Stacy, thank you so much for sharing this. I have been following your posts about your health and I am so happy to hear that you are finally beginning to feel like Stacy again! And it’s kind of amazing to me how your word for the year has manifested itself in your life — I’m sorry that it meant feeling so unwell but glad that it meant you have been able to reorganize some of your commitments to make room for bigger and better things.

    And way to go Kurt, I mean Trey!!

  2. I am so sharing this with my sister, as she talked to me several times adrenal issues and me….then I am calling my Dr.! Thanks for sharing!

  3. Oh Stacy! I’m so glad you discovered what was happening and that you took the initiative to seek out the problem. SLOW. I “stole” the picture you posted in January of the necklace charm against your blue sweater – and look at it often and make it my desktop background now and then to remind me. You are an amazing woman (I realize I only cyber-know you) but you will get through this, and what a perfect time as you become a leader in your church. Beautiful. Thank you for sharing your soul…you’re an inspiration to my life.

  4. Wow. Wow! xxoo

  5. Thank you for sharing. It is always uplifting to see how the Lord works in our lives, how our challenges and trials are tailor-made for us, and often prepare us to receive blessings and to bless others. I am SO glad you are doing better! Your stake YW are so lucky to have you leading them.

  6. “Rock bottom is a good foundation for a better version of yourself …” GREAT insight, Stacy. I’ve been there myself a few times lately and this gives me hope. Love & prayers as you enjoy your new calling and a revised pace of life. You are an amazing person and the wonder of your life has just begun :) XOXO

  7. Stacy, I think the thing I love most about you is your authenticity. A pretty scrapbook page is nice and internet goodies are fun to find, but when I take the time to read a blog/website/Facebook/etc… I want to feel connected to someone. You make this happen on your site and I for one am thankful. I am glad to hear you are feeling better and were able to find the answers you needed.

  8. Thanks for sharing, Stacy.
    I’ve been a huge fan of yours for years.
    I’ve been where you were emotionally, too – I went the natural way…amino acids and lots and lots of Vitamin B at the time. I do understand.

    Also, as of 1 month ago, I was asked to be the YW Pres. in our newly organized ward (our Stake just reorganized 8 wards).

    It is fun and I’ve had my testimony strengthened MUCH in a short time.
    Please feel free to share your ideas…there’s lots of us out here who could use ‘em!!!

  9. I love this post. I love your honesty, and I am so glad you found a cause for your symptoms – and are on your way back to being YOU. And I love that you are able to see a bigger picture and purpose to everything…I totally believe that God uses things like this in our lives to accomplish His bigger purpose and plan!!

  10. Dear Sweet Stacy,

    You are truly a blessing to so many! I am SO happy to hear that you are on the mend and are starting to feel like our Stacy again. What wonderful news! Know that you are thought of often and with love.

    Congratulations to Trey! What a FABULOUS opportunity!

  11. Stacy – after so many references in your blog posts to not feeling well, it is nice to hear the more initimate story and know that it has a happy ending and that you are back to being Stacy! The world really needs Stacy! And thanks for sharing the website – I’m thinking that’s one I may be visiting quite a bit myself in the coming years (49 and still waiting for menopause!).

  12. Wow! Some really amazing insights, Stacy. Thank you for sharing your journey. I have had a somewhat similar journey this year with my health – I kind of wish we were IRL friends, because I had the exact same experience with my husband (also a doctor!) Sometimes, women just get it. My diagnosis (an autoimmune disease called Wegener’s Granulomatosis) has me looking for answers in very different places than I would have expected.
    I am also the YW pres in our ward and it has sometimes been so tough to keep going, but many times those sweet young women have been the sustenance I’ve needed.
    Bless you, Stacy, for continuing to be real and knowing that there are many out there (here) who needed to read your words today.

  13. That is exciting news for Trey.
    And thanks for opening up to us. I have wondered (and yes, even worried) about you from little things that you have said so it’s good to know how you are doing.
    I’m looking forward to reading the rest of the story.

  14. I am so glad that you are feeling better. Thank you for sharing, when I get back to the States I plan to get my hormones checked, I have been noticing many of the same symptoms. Thank you, again.

  15. Beautiful post–and I’m so very glad you are feeling better!

  16. Stacy,

    I applaud your courage to share. I’ve dealt with many of those same symptoms for several years; just recently was I diagnosed was hypothyroidism, and am now on my way to recovery. In my experience, since so many of my symptoms were “emotional”, friends and loved ones just didn’t understand that there was more to my problem than simply feeling a little down. I really commend you for raising the awareness of hormonal issues – they are very real and cause some extremely unpleasant symptoms. I will pray that you experience complete healing.

  17. Stacy,
    Thank you so much for this post. Reading along with your blog for a long time, I too have wondered what was happening with your health after you alluding to it several times. It’s good to know that you’ve found out what has been slowing you down and have a solution.
    This post also comes at a very timely moment for me. I, in fact, have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow. I have a 9 year old son and a beautiful 22 month old daughter but I have not felt like myself since giving birth almost 2 years ago. I have been tired and achy for so long that I think it’s starting to make me depressed. I’ve been to the doctor before but without answers. I was just thinking of asking about hormones on this visit. And, hopefully, I, too will find the answers and be back to myself soon!

  18. How exciting for Trey!

    So glad that you have managed to get to the bottom of why you haven’t been feeling right. So glad that you are starting to feel better. Take care and thanks for sharing.

  19. I could have written this post (minus the 5 kids and being a Mormon LOL). I’ve been fatigued and have gained weight and cry at the drop of a hat and just feel so out of sorts, the symptoms you have/had to a T! BUT, I don’t feel depressed, I just don’t feel anything except tired and worn out. My doctor told me to exercise but all that does is make me more tired. I will have to bring this up to my doctor to see if this is what’s ailing me. Thank you so much for sharing, it makes me feel less crazy. :)

  20. Welcome back, Stacy! I love your honesty and down-to-earth goodness. I read many blogs (probably too many), and yours is always one that inspires me. Best of luck with your new calling!

  21. Dear Stacy..thank you for sharing your health concerns with us…I am glad that you found out what was the matter and are feeling better..Congrats to Trey..he must be so excitied..take care..look forward to hearing about your journey in 2011..

  22. Thank you so much for sharing your story Stacy. I was worrying that there was something seriously wrong with you, and while there was, it wasn’t terminal. How true it is that we women have to be guardians of our own health, which is quite different from that of men. Hugs!

  23. Kary in Colorado says:

    Congratulations to Trey, and you too. Good for you for hanging in there and working on finding out what wasn’t right–I’m sure it is a journey and there will be tweaks along the way, but how wonderful to begin to feel like yourself again. And I’m sure you will be an amazing stake YW president, and those girls will love and nurture you as well.

  24. Penny Grimsley says:

    Stacy, thank you for sharing. I love your vulnerability and your willingness to reveal parts of yourself. I am most thankful that you have a diagnosis and an effective treatment. You influence so many – in your religious world and your work world – and I am thankful for you. Praising God for this good news and that you are on the ‘road to recovery’.

  25. Long lost Lindsay says:

    Hey Stace! I’m so excited for the YW in your stake and wish I could be there to support your efforts. I think your symptoms describe half the women I know, and it seems they r always told to exercise. I’m so glad you pursued a treatment and r getting results. I sure miss you and your family. Wish we could see Trey perform, how fun that will be. Love to you all!

  26. Stacy…you’ve been in my prayers since you mentioned that you were having health issues. I too have experienced life changing health issues this year and after ruling out lots of other things, have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia. Much like Adrenal Fatigue, with fibro you “look normal” when in fact, so much of the time, I’m in so much pain it’s difficult to do my every day tasks. Learning how to balance medications, say no and take care of me, which still being a wife and mom, is a challenge. Can’t imagine not having faith, friends and a fabulous husband to help me get through the rough patches. Enjoy your new calling and thanks so much for sharing something so personal. Congrats to Trey!! Take care of yourself.

  27. Lauren S. says:

    Wow! I’ve been reading for about a year, and knew it was kinda tough for you. I’m glad you broke it down for us and are getting back on your feet now! Looking forward to the second installment.

  28. madeline St onge says:

    Stacey you are in my prayers for a stronger and healthier you. I went though this myself and still deal with it. Hope you feel better really soon

  29. ScrapperKaren says:

    What fun for Trey and family! My son is in a play this week and I am excited /nervous for him too!
    Thanks you for sharing your story. I have been concerned about you. Glad to hear you are getting better.
    I so understand about the Dr. husband thing…mine is one too and I can’t share unless I know he can fix it or it drives us both crazy! Good luck!

  30. Stacy,

    It sounds like you’ve been handling a very stressful and uncertain year with the utmost grace. I am so glad you have answers and a solution. You are an incredible woman, and even though your word is S-L-O-W, I know you will be an amazing stake president, going gangbusters to inspire young women as you already have through scrapbooking and your blog.

  31. Hi Stacey,
    First, way to go Trey! What an awesome experience that will be!

    Second, Thank you so much for sharing this post with us. I know I am not alone in wondering what you have been battling. It is good to hear that it is something reverseable.

    Third, what timely advice this is for me…I went to the sites you linked, and found a wealth of information my doctor has not mentioned. I feel like a light bulb has gone on for me, and am doing some more research now. Thank you for sharing your experience, you may have just helped many women who are experiencing the same things. Do keep us posted… and Bless you!

  32. Just wanted to say I adore you and your authenticity! So glad you’re feeling like yourself again.

    Yay for Trey’s big role! Reece was Kurt last year…such a fun show to be part of!

    ~Tami

  33. I’m so glad you found the answer! A woman’s health (particularly a mother’s) is a much bigger factor in our happiness and success than we tend to realize. I dealt with severe anemia, hypothyroid and depression and had very similar symptoms. My DH is a therapist and did not pick up the depression. It’s been hard to build back up, but it is possible. I’m just hoping creativity will eventally build back up too.

    You will be an amazing Stake YW president! Enjoy the ride!

  34. 1. congrats to Trey on getting cast as Kurt!!

    2. I’m glad you’ve finally gotten some help so that you can feel back to yourself again. I’ve been worried about you. *hugs!*

  35. Stacy,

    Thank you so much for sharing and Trey will do great. I have been struggling this year just as you have and I am so glad to hear you are turning the bend. It is a long road and we women in our mid-forties have a habit of not listening to our bodies when it is telling us we need to take it easy.

    Becky

  36. Marilyn S says:

    Ditto to alllll of the above, from a ‘virtual ‘ friend…. I wish I could do half of what you do on a bad day… I’m always amazed by your kindness and graciousness and how you always say the right thing…like on the PRT show…
    Hugs and prayers to you!

  37. Peggy Leland says:

    Thank you Stacy for keeping us up on how you are, I bet there are alot of women who feel like you do and just don’t know what to say to the doctors. I took the quiz just to see I’m thinking alot of my tiredness is from my diet. I may have to request this one from my library.

    Thanks for always being real. Not everyone has the courage to show their whole life as you do.

  38. Stephanie T says:

    I love the Women to Women website and newsletters. They are so helpful. Congratulations on getting onto the road to feeling better. Perimenopause and all that comes with it can be quite challenging. It’s good to get answers.

  39. Oh, Stacy. Bless your heart. I will be praying for you! I really hope supplements and/or medications can help you feel better in the long run. Living with Chronic Fatigue, I know how difficult it is to feel just… not like yourself. Hang in there! You’re an awesome mom, wife, and inspiration to us all. Thank you so much for sharing this with us! :-)

    And yay for Trey! I’m sure he’ll be amazing as Kurt!

  40. I’m so glad you are taking care of yourself Stacy – you deserve to feel good. You are such an inspiration!

  41. Stacy, thank you for sharing your story! You remind us all of how very, very important it is to listen to our bodies. I am so thankful that God was able to give you the right person in Edie to help you begin to get better. Congrats also on your new position! You are such a role model to so many women; why wouldn’t you be called to help young women in your area? Oh, and congrats to Kurt, I mean, Trey!

  42. Oh Stacy, I’m so glad you are feeling better. Thank you for your honesty and sharing your personal story. So glad that you sought help and kept digging until you found answers that worked for you. I’m sure that you will be able to meet the demands of your new post! Take care!

  43. Stacy – thank you for sharing all that! I have thought of you often this year. You have always been so peppy and cheerful – it’s amazing to me that you went through all this! I am going to a similar Dr. this month to take the saliva test. I’ve been planning it for weeks. I have not slept for 12 YEARS and I know my hormones are screwed up. I am still happy about 90% of the time but not sleeping can really wear you down physically and emotionally. I’m so glad to know you’re doing better!!!! Love you bunches!

  44. Wow Stacey, good for you for being an advocate for your own health, and trusting that things weren’t “right”! Too many times we let others tell us how we should feel, instead of listening to our body.

    It sounds like you are on the road to recovery. Good luck with your new postion! And congrats to Trey on the Kurt role!

  45. Thank you so much for sharing your “slow” journey with us. I like that you have such a solid foundation, even if it took hitting the rock bottom to find it. With your open heart and mind, you were able to let yourself be back on the mend, even if facing that road to health with uncertainty or family skepticism. I have a similar health story, and finding someone to help-who believes me and whom I trust-has been a journey in itself. God bless and God speed. Or God slow. Whatever.
    And way to go Trey! Congrats to all of you.

  46. betty koch says:

    Stacy, thank you for sharing… I was concerned and really missed the daily updates from you about your family ,your scrapbooking and YOU. It all makes sense now and you do sound like you are on the mend. Please know you will remain in my prayers with warm thoughts. I appreciate all you have given to the scrap world, and it is people like you who have made the journey soooooooooooooooo great. I wish there was a way to do all of that without depleating the energy reserve that is so important to our physical and mental health. You may have the answer in your word SLOW. It might be a good word for all of us who go in hi gear. Again, thank you for sharing.
    Peace be with you,
    Betty

  47. So excited for Trey- he was meant to be Kurt.
    Glad you found answers to the questions you were seeking and that you are now feeling better. Being a busy working mom is a huge job/s. You are an inspiration.

  48. Stacy,
    Thanks so much for the update! I have been worried and wondering about your health. I am so glad you were able to find the help that you needed. I honestly believe that what we put in our bodies can really help heal any physical problem we are having. Praticing it is much harder for me. Thanks for your good example.
    Love ya!
    LeAnne

  49. It must be difficult to share something this personal. Thank you for being honest and open. It is a gentle reminder to listen to our bodies and follow our heart when things just don’t seem right. I am glad to hear that you are starting to feel better and you are starting to return to your normal self. What a blessing it is to have medical expertise so accessible in North America. It is just a short drive, not a day long walk to a ill-stocked clinic. I am often thankful for this blessing in my life. May your recovery continue to be speedy and full.

  50. Bec_Kilgore says:

    Woo Hoo! for Trey! I am so glad to hear you are feeling better and got to the bottom of what was going on. What a perfect calling for you. Praying you will be blessed over and over while working with the young women.

  51. Love you. That’s all.

  52. I am so glad you are in a happier place! Thank you for sharing such personal details, I was very concerned about you! Good luck with your challenge and please keep sharing your great ideas!:)

  53. I also thank you for sharing. I happened to stumble upon the Women to Women website two weeks ago and have been on my supplements for about 5 days. I could have written a lot of your post, as I have been feeling much of the same for the past 6-8 months. I have a very physically demanding job, a history of moderate to severe depression, and a son with ADHD, so I didn’t know anything new was going on–thought it was more of the same on a higher level. Due to a past eating disorder, I have mistreated my adrenal gland to the point of dysfunction. I pray that I am on the right path, as you appear to be.
    Congrats on your calling, and to Trey for his successful audition! Thanks for sharing, and keep us updated…you are such an inspiration. The young women you will be leading are very fortunate.

  54. Christine H says:

    Thanks for sharing such personal details of your life. I’m sure you can handle the new position (because God never gives you anything without giving you what you need to do it) and I’m sure your journey has helped, educated and saved a woman or two. And congrats to Trey….love that movie.

  55. Lisa Walton says:

    My love and prayers to you. :-)

  56. Stacy, thanks so much for sharing about your journey this past year. I had a similar experience the year my thyroid went haywire. It was six months before it was diagnosed because the doctors (and myself) thought I was so tired because I was teaching 8th grade, completing my MBA at night, and presenting my research at professional conferences, not to mention keeping house and occasionally teaching children’s church. It took another six months for everything to get leveled out! I too think God used that year to slow me down and help me prioritize. I’m delighted that you’re feeling better!

    Congrats to Trey – my niece performed as one of the Von Trapp children in her local theatre’s production of Sound of Music about a year ago and had a wonderful time.

  57. WOW! Yay to you (and your conventional doctor husband) for embracing an alternative solution. Good to hear you are on the mend. It’s hard to remember you even have a problem, because you are SO positive and SO productive in your blog posts. It’s obvious that even with a S-L-O-Wer year, you are still SO active! As a regular reader, I forget about your symptoms until you mention them. Even in your slow/down state…you are a HUGE inspiration to us.

    THANK YOU FOR CONTINUING YOUR POSTS!
    And thank you for opening your heart and sharing yourself with us.
    ~Kasi

  58. BTW…Trey sort of looks like Kurt Von Trapp, doesn’t he!?! HA! Congrats to him!!!

  59. scrappysue says:

    Hi Stacy, wow, I am so glad to hear that you are on the mend. Please take care and know that we are all rooting for you! Many congrats to Trey, what a wonderful opportunity. ((hugs))

  60. Thank you for continuing to share yourself so openly and honestly. You are a wonderful advocate for women and I am glad that you have found some answers to your health questions. You have no idea how many women will benefit from your sharing.
    ((( HUGS )))

  61. So glad yo are on your way to recovery. I’ve been worried about what’s going on with you, thanks for sharing your story. I dealt with some mild depression last fall/winter, nothing near what you were feeling so I can’t imagine how you kept going with all that you have (work and family).
    I hope this holiday season brings you and your family joy. Good luck to Trey and his part in the musical.

  62. Thanks for sharing your story, Stacy. I’m sure that it will help a lot of other people. And congrats on your new calling. You’ll make an excellent YW President! :)

  63. Stacy,
    You are describing my life since September of last year. It all hit me when the baby of the family left on his mission, the cat of 10 years died, then the dog of 10 years followed a month later and my husband works nights. Talk about empty nester. Then I was called to team teach early morning seminary and I missed all the training because school had already started. I have had all those same feelings and dilemmas and have been down the same path. I guess the next step is to check the adrenal glands. I totally understand the word Slow and my plate is also pretty cleared as much as one can clear a plate. I do love how the Lord works and if we continue to trust in him things eventually work out. Thanks for your comments and thoughts.

  64. Thank you. So much of what you have written is striking a chord in me.
    Very, very much the same type of things going on physically and mentally. Which is not like me – I am the happy, uplifting, glass-is-always-more-than-half-full kind of gal. My friends and family rely on that. I find myself having to give myself a pep talk each morning.
    Thank you for sharing. And pointing me in a new direction, in hopes of finding an answer.
    Congrats to Trey. That is good stuff.
    And you will excel at your new position. What a wonderful opportunity.

  65. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I so appreciate your words and think I have also found what could be causing some issues with myself. You are such an inspiration.

  66. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m sure it will help others dealing with those very issues. You are always so uplifting and happy, hoping this is helping. Congrats on your new position-you’ll be great! Good luck to Trey!

  67. Congratulations Trey!

    Stacy, as always, your words are so poignant. A very brave post, and a glimpse into your heart and life – I so appreciate your willingness to share such a personal struggle that apparently resonates with so many of us cyberfriends. Continued prayers for you and the journey that God has set before you.

    Blessings…

  68. Thanks for sharing your story, Stacy. I know from reading your blog that this has been a tough year for you and am glad to hear that things are looking up. You have been such an inspiration to me through Simple Scrapbooks and BPC. Congratulations on your new duties and congratulations to Trey!

  69. Susan Ringler says:

    You are such an amazing woman. To share your innermost struggles and personal health in order to help others is just another example of your loving and caring nature. I am so sorry it has been so difficult to determine what was wrong, but I am glad you a re recovering. I have been in your LOM since the very first one, I have taken “live” classes with you, I have followed you for so long and never really had a personal conversation with you but you feel such a part of my world (scrapping and family). Thank you for all you do and please keep taking care of yourself..

  70. I went throught the excact same thing. I am so glad that your doctor is educated in this area, and that you listened to her. As I was reading your post, I started to recognize the ‘symptoms’, again. I have been blaming my ‘slugishness’ on being sick. But now I wonder if I need a check up, to adjust my meds. Thanks so much for posting this. I need to go and make an appointment with my doctor. HANG IN THERE, it does get back to normal…

  71. Stacy,

    I only know you through online classes and this blog, but I can tell you are such a brave, wise, kind and wonderful woman. I love reading your blog and appreciate the fact you share your issues to help others. Here’s a giant HUG!!!

  72. Jenny McGee says:

    Congrats to Trey. Glad you are starting to feel better and that God knew your calling and knew how to SLOW you down a bit.

  73. Congratulations to Trey!
    Stacy, thank you so much for sharing such an intimate part of yourself. As you have posted over the past year I have found myself praying for you to find peace and healing. You are an amazing woman, you provide inspiration, hope and healing for women all over the world. And though I have never had the privilege of meeting you I feel like I know you and that my life would not be complete without your example. You ARE a blessing to the women who read your blog, who take classes at BPC and now to the beautiful young women of your stake. Again, thank you and may the Lord’s love and peace bless you as you heal.

  74. So many of the symptoms you’ve described…I’ve been experiencing them, too. I really thought it was depression and resisted thinking that I could be affected after having been such a happy person all my life. Thanks for the info and the push to do something about it. I’m 46 and wondered if menopause was on it’s way for me, but now I see some other issues to investigate. You’re a dear for sharing.

  75. So happy to know you are feeling better — I find you inspirational in so many ways. Not a Morman myself, but active in another Christian faith, I aslo believe that God answered your prayers, slowing you down physically so you could mindfully focus and reflect. The opportunity within your church is so exciting for you, but I am more excited for the women you will be leading. I know you only from the scrapping world…your posts here, your books and your podcasts and I feel that you are such a truly inspirational and authentic person — how wonderful for them to have the opportunity to work with you. I have have add, on a purly selfish note, that I hope you continue to share here your life-documenting reflections and creative ideas…I know you not only inspire me, but sooooo many others who read hear too.

  76. Hopefully the year 2011 will be a much better year for you!

  77. Sherri S. says:

    I’m somewhat new to your blog but have been inspired by you for years! I was worried about you when I read that you were having health problems. Thanks for sharing what’s been going on and I’m so glad you are feeling better. I’m also in my mid 40′s and the changes my body is going through is pretty overwhelming without the adrenal problems.

  78. Karen Neder says:

    Hi Stacie – I’m so glad you shared this with all of us – especially those of us in the transitional peri-menopausal years! I, too, just discovered the website “Women to Women” and it alone has taught me a lot. I look forward to hearing more about your journey as I take my own journey. Thanks for being you!!

  79. Thanks for sharing your story, Stacy. I understand that frustration when you know something isn’t “right”, and you want to go to the doctor and come back “fixed”. You are brave to share your personal story and I know it will help other women experiencing similar things. Thank you for everything you do for so many.

  80. Congrats to Trey! Was the audition harder on you? :)

    Thank you for sharing your update. You are such a wonderful example to the every day mom, so to know a little bit of your personal struggles helps us, too. So glad to hear that you are feeling like yourself again and I can only imagine how blessed the YW and their mothers in your stake are now!

    Big hugs!

  81. Jodi Berg says:

    Thank you so much for sharing these personal things. God does seem to do things differently than we would have it, but His way is the best way. I am so happy to hear you are feeling like the old Stacy (and I don’t mean old, as in age). I mean the old when you felt good. You are such an incredible lady. I met you at a Delta Phi Scrappa conference and you just lit up the room. It was so comforting to hear your message and to see your passion about life and scrapbooking. I look at scrapbooking a whole new way because of you. No gullet, only joy in creating and sharing what’s important. Have a wonderful week.

  82. Stacy, I’m glad you can see that light and hope again. I hope it will come to all to seek it . . . thanks for sharing your story!

  83. First–I love the Sound of Music, and congrats to Trey! Second, hugs to you and prayers for strength and peace as you continue your journey to well-being! I know how frustrating it can be for doctors not to find simple answers.

  84. Absolutely wonderful post…thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this. How I pray, wish, want to get to this point. I’ve been fighting
    the same type feelings for years and it so rewarding to see you make such great progress.

    Diane

  85. Lisa in Spokane says:

    Thanks so much for sharing! I’m so glad you are getting some answers you so deperately need! You are a wonderful example of how we all need to be advocates for ourselves. You wouldn’t have the information you have if you hadn’t have kept going back and saying you knew something was wrong. That’s hard to do when a doctor is telling you that it looks like everything is fine. That you are willing to share the good times and the hard times makes all of us love you even more!

  86. I’ve been wondering what was going on. You told us that someday you would share the story with us about your health and I’ve been worried for you. Isn’t it wonderful that we have the internet to help us help ourselves….like being the one to diagnose yourself. I’m so glad you were able to figure that out and find a way to get feeling better. In serving in my ward Relief Society presidency with a wonderful leader who herself was suffering health problems and many other struggles, I’ve seen how these callings can really help us be stronger and help us in the other areas of our lives. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

  87. Stacy…for those of us who are going through tough times, reading someone else going through it too, is so helpful and uplifting. Your post could have been written by me, but unfortunately, I still haven’t found the answers you have. You give me hope that I might, and someday the old me might return.

  88. Stacy…a big hug to you first off. Thank you for sharing what has been happening with you and that you have some resolution for healing. I have been so worried, especially when you shared the information about your leg “history”.

    Congratulations on the new Calling. You are meant to have such a Calling. God knows what he is doing and we all have to trust in The Lord.

    Wonderful news about Trey! I’ll have to find out when the production is and we just might have to make a trip to my husband’s parents for the weekend. Afterall, CVHS is my hubby’s alma mater.

  89. I’m so glad you found the source of your malaise. I went through something similar a few years ago, but in my case I had autoimmune thyroid disease, but often normal T3 & T4. A persistent naturopath finally tested my antibodies & sure enough! It’s easy to keep in check, and I have my life back. I’m glad you do, too.

  90. Thank you! Thank you! Thank You!. Now I know how to get my old mom back! I’ve been very worried about her but now I understand what is happening to her and will help her get the help she needs. Thank you for sharing.

  91. First off, congrats to Trey!

    Second, thank you for sharing your story. Obviously from the replies you know how much your cyber family appreciates and loves you. You are an inspiration to us all. I know 2011 will be a better year for you and you will be outstanding in you new calling. Happy Holidays to your entire clan! :-)

  92. hugs. what a year you’ve had! You’ll do great and so will Trey! I’m glad you’re on the road to recovery and adjustment.

  93. Congrats to Trey for making the play!!! My daughter and I love the Sound of Music and often break out singing one of their songs (and Im not a singer, lol)

    Thank you for sharing your journey to feel you again with us. You are so real and I love that about you. I believe your story will help many, many women. Sometimes we don’t feel right but the docs say we are fine and shuffle us out the door. But, you persisted and were open to new ideas and now you have answers! So proud of you for persevering :)

    xxoo

  94. Congrats to your little ‘Kurt.’ That’s so exciting. And thank you for sharing your personal struggles today…it means more to me than you’ll ever know…and I don’t say that to sound cliche…I really mean it.

  95. Karen Schmidt says:

    Stacy thanks for sharing with us. Just know we love you and like alot of people have already said you help women all over the world. Thank you for your inspiration. Praying for you and your family.

  96. So very happy to hear you found a diagnosis and a fix! Health related issues sure can take a chunk out of our lives, that’s for sure! I do believe that God gives us these ups and downs in life so we can feel blessed. I mean how often does a person who has had no personal health issues really take the time to be thankful for the little things in life. Although I would never wish my health issues on someone else, I think I’m a better person for having gone through them. WE have perspective! PS also so very happy to learn of Trey’s acting role!!!!

  97. I freaking LOVE YOU!!! oh my gosh.. I love you.. You have said everything that has been in my heart for the last year.. and it just makes my spirit want to reach out and hug you. I LOVE YOU!!!!! So thankful for you writing this post.. The Lord loves you.. I love you.

  98. Michelle Evans says:

    Thank you for sharing. We all need to remember that there is something always waiting for us…and lessons always need to be learned.
    You are loved and will do GREAT at your new calling. Those of us out here will miss you, but cheer you on!

    Have a wonderful Christmas!

  99. Stacy, my hope for you is a better and brighter 2011. It sounds like your headed there! Congrats to Trey for his part in the Sound Of Music and to you for your newest calling. Best Wishes.

  100. A great big ginormous hug to you. I have been concerned about you. You have had quite a struggle , and I am so glad you have found the help you needed. Best of luck to you and your new calling. May the peace and joy of Christmas be with you today and throughout the new year.

    p.s. Congrats to Trey. You must be so proud of his accomplishment.

  101. Thank you for sharing! So glad you are on the mend! Congratulations to Trey!

  102. Haven’t checked in for a while, but so excited to hear about Trey (congratulations) and your appointment as the stake young women’s president, you’re going to be a great asset in each of those girls lives. Even happier to hear you’re on the mend and praying for you and your family. God Bless:)

  103. So glad to hear you are on the mend. I have loved your LOM class and your blog. I am curious about all of this and will check the book out. Thank you for sharing.

  104. Stacy, I think it is so important for women to share openly about our journeys, especially our health journeys, especially as we approach peri-menopause, etc. There is good information out there, but not a ton of open dialogue. Thank you for being so open. I love thinking about how many women will read your honest thoughts about this tricky journey. I cannot wait to read more. I am so thankful for your blog. You inspire us all in so many, many ways. HUGS through cyberspace!

  105. Cami MacDonald says:

    Congrats to your son – The Sounds of Music is one of my all time faves!
    Thanks for sharing about your struggles. That’s healthy release, I say!
    Good luck to you in your new calling. Those young ladies will be very blessed by you.

  106. Congrats to Trey, it will be hard work but lots of fun too. Very glad to hear that you are on the mend. We have worried about you over the past few months.

  107. Hugs! Congrats to Trey! And thanks for being so open – and thanks for letting us know that given the right people listening, mending does happen! Continued improvement!

  108. Congratulations to Trey. It’s a wonderful musical to be part of. My daughter was Marta in our community college summer musical production when she was 10. I was one of the nuns. We still look back on this time as being a wonderful experience.
    Thank you for sharing your health journey. It’s so important to let other women know how important it is to advocate for themselves. So glad you are on the mend.

  109. I’m so glad to hear that things are looking up for you. Chronic illness is devastating. So happy to learn that you’re doing so much better.

  110. I’ve finally gotten the chance to read this post. You go girl!!
    I’m going through some anxiety issues right now, and feeling a lot like you.
    We can do it :)
    A big hug from Spain

  111. Congratulations to you and Trey for your new roles! :o) Thank you so much for sharing your health journey with us. I’m very glad and grateful to hear that you are on the mend. I find you completely inspiring in so many ways and the admiration just keeps coming. Thanks again for all of your work and I pray that you continue on your upward path! :o)

  112. Stacy — I am so proud of trey and LOVE that play so it will be a huge fun thing for you guys. I am also so thankful you shared YOUR story. I have always been so amazed at your energy and ability to be UP all the time. I think sharing this struggle is so important, as it could really resonate with so many. You are always an inspiration and I will pray that you will feel better and better and have tons of energy for the things that REALLY do matter. hugs

  113. Stacy, it’s wonderful to hear from you and hear about your health and what’s been going on. Keeping fingers crossed that progress will continue to be seen! I’m looking forward to taking your LOM class…are you doing it this spring or summer?

  114. Wow, Stacy, I really know exactly what you have been going through! The tears, the fatigue, the overwhelm, everything! I, too, have suffered with the same symptoms and discovered I had a hormonal imbalance and depleted adrenals.

    Unfortunately, my health journey took three long years before I began feeling like my old self, due mainly to physicians looking at individual symptoms instead of the whole syndrome, and one endocrinologist who said, with a big smile on his face, I was “just going through the change.” At age 40!?! Seriously? And I had to wait two months for an appointment just to hear that!

    I also discovered WomentoWomen.com last year and found it to be an invaluable resource in overcoming the adrenal fatigue through diet and lifestyle changes. But my hormones were still wonky, so finally, less than two months ago, my GP prescribed a hormone treatment that has made all the difference. I can finally say, I’m baaaaack!

    I’m so glad you are too!

  115. Thank you for sharing with us all. I’m glad you have finally gotten some answers to what was going on and also what you could do to make it better. You wrote that you will continue later and I will be watching for the next installment.

  116. Wow Stacy, you’ve been through so much this year. I’m glad you’re feeling better and hope you continue on the path of healthy recovery. Congratulations on your position as stake young women’s president. The girls are lucky to have you. And congrats to Trey too.

  117. YW is the best it is still my favorite place to serve even at 51 and with all but one of the children gone!!!

  118. Donna Clark says:

    Stacy!!! We love u and are so thankful you are a part of our virtual lives…but you have a place in our real life hearts! Please know that we understand and always want you to do what is best for you and your family. We will take whatever you have to give, when you can give it, and accept that their are times you just can’t give anymore of yourself. You must know what a positive force you are in this universe and how many of us you have inspired and continue to inspire with your openness and honesty. thank you for sharing.
    love
    donna

  119. Stacy – Thanks SO much for sharing your struggles and your thoughts on all you’ve been through this past year! Congratulations to Trey on getting one of the best parts of my favorite play/movie. That will be so fun for your family. And how blessed the YW Program in your Stake will be to have you serving as the President! I share your feelings totally that you were made to prepare yourself for this calling. You and the girls will be blessed for your service, believe me. I have been in the program for years and just recently was released. I’m sure healthwise you will be blessed as well.

    Also – thanks so much for all your energy you brought to the Ultimate Cruise. It was so fun to see and talk to you again. And I love my album!

    Big hugs and prayers!
    June (Rock)

  120. Stacy…you are as always my hero. Even in such a struggle you are such a role model. Thank you for sharing the story of your journey, thank you for being real, and thank you for being a person who helps the rest of us see that we can be okay just being ourselves – we don’t have to be anyone else. I so admire you.

    Congrats to Trey…what an adventure!

  121. SLOW-that sounds just right. So appreciate your books, and your philosophy. They have brought so much joy into creating for me. Have been through tough times when my body wouldn’t follow the directions of my mind. That can be very frustrating. Be kind and gentle to yourself as you have been to so many others.

  122. I’m so glad that you shared your story; I’ve been wondering by the hints all the time WHAT was going on with you – other than “health problems” that were to be discussed when the time was right. I am SO GLAD that you got some answers and some relief. In good health or bad, you are an inspiration; somehow, as mother’s we have to remember that it is important to take care of ourselves so that we’re able to care for others and that it is important to listen to our bodies.

  123. Stacy, you are an example to us by slowing down and going through the journey. Thanks for sharing. I am sure many of us have been worried about you. I am sure you will do a fine job in your new calling.

  124. Thank you so much for sharing. In October of 09 I also started waking up very early and hurt, no not just hurt, I was in pain and ached. I was in a really bad accident several years ago and do not remember hurting anything at all then like I suddenly had starting hurting. I found out it was my Vit D level, now who would have thought that, it took months to feel better. I’m so sorry that you had to face your problem, it’s not fun. It’s odd how things happen. Now look you are in YW how exciting. I got to be an advisor years ago for a short time and also the sports director. Most of the time (almost all the time actually) I have a music calling, so I am really happy for you. You will do great!

  125. You are so awesome for sharing this with us! You’re always an inspiration and I love hearing about how God is working in your life, He is amazing and so are you!

  126. Thank you for sharing your story. I, too, am thought to be in peri-menopause and was diagnosed as low thyroid and put on medication mid-August. We are still trying to get the right dosage. Your revealing your situation is making me wonder if there are other things we should also be looking at. Thanks again – knowledge is power! So glad you have found some relief and hope you continue to feel better.

  127. Thanks for sharing-
    I am sorry that your health was bad too… but I love reading your Mormon snippets and stories. They are so part of your everyday life–that uplifts me.

  128. thanks for sharing~! love your blog & I just had to say I think Edie is amazing~! been going to her for a few months now & she is a wealth of knowledge :)

  129. Congrats to Trey. And to you too. Finding out what was wrong, being able to fix it AND finding out why is wonderful. You WILL do a great job. There is NO doubt there.

  130. Oh Stacy, I just want to go to you and give you a big hug! Wow! What you have been to sounds so familiar to me. I too have fought these same symptoms this year. It never occurred to me that it could be my adrenal gland. I have an appointment on Tuesday with my GP, I will ask her about it.

    I just want to say one more thing. Through all you have been through this past year, you have handled yourself, at least to us (your cyber friends) with such grace, in that you never griped, whined, or complained. You also encouraged people (like me) during the past year by your sweet little notes (yes, I still have your little card you sent me with the box filled with jelly bellies and your handcrafted Book of Mormon). I think of you whenever I see them, and felt so encouraged by your sweet words of wisdom.

    I guess I just wanted you to know that. So glad you are on the mend. So happy for Trey. The Sound of Music is one of my favorite movies.

    Amy B :)

  131. Thank you so much for sharing your health journey this past year. You could have been describing me over the past couple of years! I started bugging my doctor about my symptoms and she did some blood tests including thyroid — all negative. She told me she thought my depression was not being adaquately treated! I was sure she was wrong because I have been seeing a holistic psychologist, working through many issues, and taking medications and I don’t feel depressed — just tired and foggy etc…. She also told me I was probably peri menopausal, but there’s nothing you can do about that and only being kept awake by night sweats should made me tired! Your story is inspiring me to either ask her more questions or find another medical practitioner. On my own I have started doing yoga once a week — it’s great and walking 30 mins a day.

    I am sorry you are suffering, but it’s good that we are not alone!

    Congrats also to Trey — I LOVE the Sound of Music!
    ~Beth

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